maybe baby

i think im going crazy.

yes my tenses are all over the shop

oh of course i know the answer, it's better to crash

because it's all worth the crashing.

firstly sam and i can catch the train into the city, and eat coffee and toast

and then we can wonder up all the streets, with all the buildings and all the people

and all the amazing shops, so many shops.

and ill wonder along with my cape and my blue box bag, clasping onto mule as his hair just blows backwards and he leads me, walking like a sexy sexy man and telling me what he thinks.

and then i will go to amazing places, and see amazing things,

and we will wonderback through the city at night, buying fifteen dollars of lollies and champagne.

and then we will spend a wonderful night in a hotel room, doing whatever the flipping fuck we want, ever.

see all this actually happens

and then we go on holiday, to barwon heads, that should be spelt barwin heads.

i love going away, without my family. it sounds horrid, but it's true

im removed, so far away, somewhere new, with so many things to do.

like diving into the ocean, saying "fuck this" at the coldness. and then lying on the sand, not caring about how it's getting in my pants.

well not until later, but then it's okay because i can shower and have a crumpet.

and then i can eat with sam, and he loves eating, he loves all the taste and the texture and the colour and it's so nice to see.

and then i can wonder, and he will answer, and ill wonder more, and then he will wonder too.

and then we drink champagne, so much champagne and so much beer and cider and we can take a drunken but amazing walk to the beach at night, and dance in the sand.

i liked dancing in the sand, with the cold wind but no one around and the music coming from sam's phone and us just singing and dancing like loons.

and then i will like to watch the sea, and get attacked by massive waves crashing on the side of the wall, and we can talk about ship wrecks and what kindof of fish we would like to be.

so much nicness

and it makes me feel higher :)

and wonder even more.

and all yay. oh yay :)

annie and i also like to bombard elliots laptop with photos of our face :)