bye.

oh wow.

its eight twenty six.

sunday night,

october the fourth

national golf day

and its the last day of these holidays

i dont want them to end.

i have. honestly and uberly

had the best holidays in more than a year

sam sam sam sam sam

i saw him everyday.

i feel like its mutual. he wants to see me too.

we did so much.

we painted masks.

we watched the WHOLE first season of dexter

we sat on my window for hours at night

eating noodles, drinking lemonade and talking absolute crappness

absolutly nothing

ridiculous stuff.

like what animal or plant we would be if we could

or if there are invisible cities on the moon

or or

get drunk. on school roofs

and then pretend we are areoplanes

or just lie in his bed

him cuddling me.

i dont want it to end

but you know.

it will be fine.

im going to go to school. im going to practise my toes off

im going to study well

and do well in exams

and then i will be free for the summer

with sam.

hopefully.

dont rely on it dont rely on it dont rey on it

happy back to school :)