starting now

its so early

i have never blogged this early

outside is calm, quiet

there is an occasional bird sound. but even the clouds arent moving.

im all ready for school, ready for my day.

sailor dress.

golden shoes

pink sock, music sock

grandpa hat

blue eyeliner

its all looking normal

but i wish i could do and do something else

after the same inane mundane thing day after day

bus, train, school, home.

home home home home

its like living on the top of the storm cloud

it seems quiet when you're up there

but you just have to listen for the rumbles underneath to understand where you really are

but its okay.

we do what we can to make life easier

sometimes i think i can cope, sometimes i think i cant

but it comes down to i have to, doesnt it?

we all have to be able to cope

no oen breaks down

or runs away to a tree house in india

that isnt how it works

i dont know how i feel today

maybe i will just go to school

bury myself in my music

bury myself in nmy revision

do some lunch time dancing

and just ignore it

that's so much easier